I slept for 11 hours for the first time in god knows how long let's fucking gooo

2021.12.05 04:34 brugola I slept for 11 hours for the first time in god knows how long let's fucking gooo

I've had troubles sleeping for my whole life I think. Mostly falling asleep, it could take me.. hours, even as a kid. During adolescence it turned in full blown insomnia. There where some times that could extend for weeks at a time where i had horrible nightmares and I was straight up afraid of falling asleep.
At some point few years ago I started, involuntarily, sleeping polyphasically, for the lack of a better term. No matter what, i could not sleep for more than 3 or 4 hours, but I slept two times a day. Let me tell you, it fucking sucks. It doesn't matter how tired you are, you fall asleep and wake up too early. And you never feel rested. You feel tired and miserable, so you go to bed, but you often can't even fall asleep.
It's hell on earth, really.
I don't remember the last time I slept 8 hours straight, let alone did so between midnight and 8AM, as most people do. When I'm blessed with six hours of sleep it's always after 4AM. Often 6AM. During winter there are periods where I see the sunlight for only three hours a day. As you can guess this can take a toll on one's mental health.
Anyway, lately I've been in one of those shitty spot I was talking about earlier where I'm unable to sleep for more than 3 hours. And yet, yesterday I fell asleep at 8PM after being awake for around 18 hours with three hours of sleep, which is not too unusual for me. But today i woke up at 7AM. How the fuck did this happen, I don't know. I know i half woke up a couple times during the night, but I feel asleep right after and I don't know why this happened, I'm just happy it did. I feel so rested it's unreal. Is this how other people feel all the time? you lucky bastards, I'm jealous.
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2021.12.05 04:34 sarca-sim Re: I fcking loathe A Little Life

I would like to make a new post, because the previous post blew up a little and I simply wasn't in my best mindset. It was 5 am in the morning and I was simply disappointed, but here is more constructive criticism:
Hanya Yanagihara is a wonderful, genius writer. It's her writing prowess that makes the book work. The lack of the author's voice, the perspectives of artists from all spheres of society: it's incredible. I loved the beginning. In the four characters I could find different characters of myself, as a poc who was privileged enough to get a good education but never quite escape the qualms of racism. It really did seem to be on the paths of becoming my favourite book.
My problem began with the inherent inscribing of sexual abuse (by pedos mostly) to make a character- a character so perfect to his friends- interesting and philosophical.
As a writer, when you want to make a character deep, one of the easiest ways is trauma. Yet trauma arrives from a variety of issues, and the thing is, almost everything- everything can be justified. If someone suffers racism, there will always be some of the readers who will say - oh, but this and that didn't happen that usually happens to black people. If it was slight sexism, someone might say that they are overreacting, you don't have to be THAT deep just because you were catcalled once.
The exceptions are losing a loved one (bonus: a sibling, because parents are too common now) and being sexually assaulted. that trauma is something that can hardly ever be criticised or compared to others. It's a very easy route, but a difficult one too.
What I disliked about the book was the trauma porn at every point of Jude's life. I mean, every. What infuriates me further is that Jude is a perfect character- hardly any flaws at all.
It's almost like implying, you can have trauma as long as you are a genius, a good friend. As long you constantly doubt yourself and keep to yourself, but not so much that people disregard your intelligence prowess but are also slightly impressed by you.
The fact that there was absolutely NO research that went to the character of Jude is even more infuriating. He was a boy who was abused since he was like 8 till around 14-15. Yet when he comes out of the world, he is a boy who has frequent spasms of pain- and absolutely nothing else that could set him apart. He never lashes out his friends, has no signs of anger or frustration, he is perfect to EVERYONE except himself.
That is something that triggers something very maddening in me. It's almost like accusing people who have gone through trauma, making then feel sad about what they might have done sometimes to hurt their loved ones. Yes, a bad childhood doesn't mean you can treat people shittily - but real life rarely works like that, and especially considering the abuse Jude went through, I really don't know how he came out the way he did, trusting to live among three boys, and worst of all, being a genius.
It simply felt like author was taking such an easy route. He is perfect, except to himself.
There is also the question of JB, and of Malcolm too. JB is seemed to made selfish because he had a happy childhood. Malcolm is shown to be dumb because of his good life. Willem, the almost second character, has trauma because he didn't have the best parents and lost his brother.
Even Harold has lost his son. It's almost like to make a character likebale, you have to give them trauma. Those who don't have it - JB, Malcolm - are not the best characters, even if they are in reality the most realistic.
I loved the delicious of JB, Malcolm and Williem. JB's profound relationship with race, Malcolm's with his parents and Willem's with success- I loved, absolutely devoured it. I think, if the book had continued about being the four of them- while also going through Jude's trauma (which I wish would not have been so much), I would have liked it better. Doesn't even matter if Jude har committed suicide because well, it is supposed to be a sad book- but for all the reasons mentioned above, it simply seemed like a cheap trick to get readership.
For the general audience who haven't read a lot of deep contemporary, to lure them into a trap by talking about four out of college friends in New Yotk- and then getting so much deep into trauma, it might have been a bonus point. Because like I said, the author is a genius writer. But when you think deep about it, the perfect creation of characters that fit this sort of trope where trauma is the only character development and those who don't have trauma are reduced to one dimensional characters, it's really not convincing. Someone said in the comments section of the previous post that it's a sad book people get off at, and I couldn't agree more. It seems that the inherent goal of this book is to traumatize so much that it leaves a deep impression in your mind. And thankfully, Yanagihara is a good enough writer to do that.
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2021.12.05 04:34 yellowhotdogburger Outside Thesis consultation: is it allowed

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2021.12.05 04:34 Swezyde Games so good

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2021.12.05 04:34 Jimqq1314 The girl(33f) i(35m) love is going overseas for 2month

I recently realise I love my colleague and she's going overseas for 2month to visit her family.
We only recently start talking. There's also another guy chasing her and she's already on the brink of being his gf or maybe even unofficially together already.
I know this guy text her alot alot because she told me.
When she go overseas, she will be alone. The guy would be texting her all day, and calling at night since they are already doing so everyday.
I'm not sure what my stance should be.
Should I also text her alot? From a few exchanges and slowly increasing it to whole day?
Or should I just text only a few text a day
If i do not text at all I feel after she comes back, whatever momentum I build, would be lost.
Tldr girl going overseas and already had a guy. Should I text more or less
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2021.12.05 04:34 brihoang [11/5/2021] Sunday’s Sports Talk Thread

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2021.12.05 04:34 aesxtria [O level] how impt are CCA pts?

Do future employers or any jobs, EAE/ DSA— do they look at your cca record??
For context: I’m a sec 3 this year( sec 4 next year) and I kind of worry about not being able to get any LEAPS point bc I changed cca in sec 2 tho I have >75% cca, attended SYF once, and have a leadership role( welfare head).
In sec2 & sec3 both years: I should have 100% attendance but now it’s like 90% bc my tcher marked it wrongly and even when I showed her evidence that I came she just blueticked all my messages. so I returned the original inaccurate slips to my ft and now they didn’t give me back an updated one lmao so my report book is damn empty siaa ( for sec2 sec3)
and also about this missing pages issue I’m very scared bc I want to do EAE next year so idk what to do
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2021.12.05 04:34 GoalooES Nundesliga - Borussia M’gladbach vs Freiburg Match Preview

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2021.12.05 04:33 AbaloneSea7265 What do you think about gun control after that fish faced killer was given a gun after he already had mental health problems?

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2021.12.05 04:33 AmericanaMissy What song from each of these bands is considered universally and objectively the best according to the fans?

I'm curious about what song from different bands is universally agreed on being their best work. So far, I know that 'A Day In The Life' by the Beatles is considered the best. It's an amazing craft. The lyricism, acoustics, orchestral buildup, storytelling, experimentalism, and the contrast of Lennon and McCartney is wonderful.
So here are the bands: Nirvana, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Queen, and The Rolling Stones.
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2021.12.05 04:33 revolites Apologies for resolution but you get the idea

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2021.12.05 04:33 kingmukade37 Giant pirates

So I'm confused because there's no evidence of human habitation on little garden but it was a human child who caused the fight between dorry and boggy so did they have humans on etheir ship or something?
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2021.12.05 04:33 Gloomy-Taste-9664 Omnicron varient is spread by fully vaccinated people.

The varient is spread from one country to another through people traveling. But as per guidelines, you can travel only if you have been fully vaccinated, so in simple words, people who have got both shots of vaccine get infected and are carriers of covid-19.
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2021.12.05 04:33 Calm-Present8564 I can’t get enough of this girl. She is so sweat and absolutely beautiful 😍

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2021.12.05 04:33 give_me_a_damn_name2 What small piece of advice or knowledge can save lives?

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